Is it really only day three?!?! My God today was by far the worst day so far since I have started this whole thing. No joke, I really thought I was going to die today. That or have some serious things happen. All of which nearly stopped me right in my tracks of all this. I’m not talking about mere hunger pangs folks, I was afraid I was compromisingly my health and in fact I am still a little weary.
The day started out great. No middle of the night dashes to the bathroom, I woke up nice and early to do my ‘SWF’ and I was feeling refreshed too (which is the most unusual because I am NOT a morning person). I did my salt water flush and things came out just fine. I made enough lemonade to take to work, and had one for breakfast as I was getting rounded up for the day. I actually felt really really good.
Now I know that the book says to put 2TBS of syrup in the lemonade but Stanley Man also says you can put less if you are trying to loose weight. So not that it is my top priority or anything, I have been only putting in about 1TBS of syrup in most of my drinks. This has seemed sufficient for the most part.
Well today I decided to put 2TBS in one of the drinks I took to work. Just to give me a little boost if i began to feel tired. I think this was where I made the mistake. I have always felt like my glucose borderlines on imbalance. But I have had my blood tested and I guess its nothing to be concerned about. But after what happened today I think I definitely gave my body a shock by going over a bit. Now I am not a doctor, I do not know if this is what really happened, but I will tell you I know my body and it is my opinion that it was a sugar imbalance.
So you probably want to know what happened right? Well around lunch time I started feeling sluggish and by then I was on my 3rd lemonade of the day, the one with the extra syrup. After lunch I did about an hours forth of work standing where I began to feel pressure in my head and I would get light headed now and again followed by my ears starting to feel hot. I decided to have a sit at the computer thinking it would help. I started reading something online at which point my eyes seemed to get really fuzzy and I got this tingling sensation all through out my body. It was then when I felt it, like I was going to just pass out and fall over right then and there. It really made me anxious and I could feel my ears getting red and hot again. I stood up because it was like a panic attack and I just wanted to change what I was doing. But it wasn’t an attack because I have had them before. I immediately felt like my sugar was off. I went in the back of the store and chugged the final bottle of lemonade I had brought with me to work. This helped A LOT. I think I had given myself a sugar rush with the one lemonade and then all of the sudden my sugar dropped. So the second lemonade helped even it out.
I still felt light headed the rest of the day. I still do actually. I came home and made a lemonade first thing, and then I took another one with me to class and drank that there.
I have to make a side note to why todays evens could have easily ruined me. I don’t have health insurance right now. I know I know I am crazy but I have to wait until I start classes this summer at the larger university to be able to get their health care. So for right now nothing can happen to me or I will very quickly become in a financial crisis. So I am beginning to question myself as to if I should be doing this while I am not insured. Had I passed out they would have undoubtedly called a squad which if for some reason I was not able to be woken up would have taken me to the hospital where I would have been admitted and charged for both the ambulance and the admittance fee. Thats probably about $35,000 I just cant afford.
So what did I decided? I really haven’t decided yet. One part of me does not want to give up. I want to push through it and blame it on detox. The cynic inside me says this is all a big joke to begin with and I need to get snap back to reality and realize that some sort of pepper lemonade concoction simply cant be healthy. But then again I feel like this is the first time I have ever been so determined to concur a goal and I want to see that through. I want to feel the grasp of accomplishment and know that I did something truly for myself and followed through with it.
So I guess the plan is to get plenty of rest tonight and hope I feel better in the morning. I think I will bring a bottle of orange juice to work with me encase I feel faint again. I know we are suppose to be slammed tomorrow which could be really bad. I really really want to hold out but I feel like I might just push my body into more than in can handle.
Anyway its still kind of early but I am thinking about drawing a bath and calling it a day. I am exhausted to say the least.
