Whoo Hoo! I made it through day two, but in following the trend of honesty I will admit that I came close to giving in again today. Not nearly as close as yesterday though, so this is progress right? I have to keep reminding myself that this is only for a couple weeks, and I will be able to once again enjoy the comforts and rituals of eating real food soon enough.
I had brought some of my moms famous chili home for David last night. The same chili that had me foaming at the mouth and debating whether I should just quit right then and there. But I figured if I cant enjoy it, might as well share it with someone who can. Bad idea no. 2, I awoke from a nap today to the aroma of sweetness and spices. I wanted so badly to just have one bite, one lick. But no I braced myself and ignored my rumbling belly. My poor poor stomach *sniff sniff*.
Today was a pretty good day. I woke up and did the salt water flush (SWF in the whole master cleanse lingo). It worked quite well. Although I think it took more like and hour and a half until I could stop making a mad dash for the restroom every time my stomach did a turn. Most people I guess it only takes an hour or less. Note to self: wake up early tomorrow as to not poop ones pants on the way to work. I’m being serious that stuff is no joke and you better be within 5 feet of a bathroom until all is clear and out of the system.
I am braving it up tonight and giving the laxative tea another shot. The story is that it helps loosen all the nasty grind on your intestines so when you do the “SWF” in the morning it all comes out leaving your insides squeaky clean.. or as clean as a poop duct can get anyway. I read that if the laxative tea is to harsh on you to try adding more water and diluting it so that is what I am doing.
Softball practice was canceled today due to rain. I was actually slightly disappointed. We had agreed on an early enough time that I still had a fairly nice amount of energy. Also this is my first time playing softball, since uhm… maybe high school? So I’m already pretty much going to be the ass hole who screws the team by not having even a clue what it I am doing. I just figured it would be nice to have some time learning how to throw and swing at a ball (notice I say ’swing at’, I think saying ‘hitting a ball’ would be anticipating too much). Hopefully I can get someone to practice with me sometime this week so I don’t make a total fool of myself.
Since softball got canceled I decided it’d be better not to waste my energy sitting around doing diddley squat, so I went for a short run. I pushed my self to run harder than my lungs and legs wanted to which felt nice once my body gave in to my perseverance. I also came home and stretched the crap out of my legs and back. I am trying to get flexible again, enough so that I can pick up some time coaching gymnastics. I did it for so long as a kid that I don’t want to just throw it all away. But at the same time I feel bad expecting my kids to do the splits when I myself cant.
Randoms:
- The lemonade tasted less sweet today. odd.
- My lounge was fairly normal today.
- I got a lot of ‘real’ actual studying done today, as well as a quiz I nearly forgot was due tomorrow.
- I have a few new pimples I’m thrilled about (no really I really am… *cough.i.hate.this.cough*).
- My back is killing me.
- I’m exhausted at the end of the day but oddly still have active energy.
Oh about the list I was suppose to write. The one about why I am doing this to have it as a formal reminder. Oh yeah.
Why I am doing The Master Cleanse:
- To detoxify my mind, body, and spirit
- To accomplish a goal
- To get determined about something
- To motivate myself
- To become more dedicated to being healthy and active
- To persevere
- To understand the luxury I have of eating and enjoying food
- To break myself of the chains which gluttony has bound me
- To open myself up emotionally
- To take those built up emotions and actually deal with them
- To come closer to my spiritual ethos
- To become whole
- To meditate on who I am
- To become more secure and confident in who I am
- To do something solely for myself and to be proud of that accomplishment for the sole purpose of pleasing me
- Finally, To figure out why in the heck I have so many reasons I am doing this.. there must be some serious baggage that needs to be put away and laid to rest. Thus Hopefully this will lead me down the track to enlightenment… or something like that.
Well I think my list is plenty long enough to have something to fire off to myself every time I feel like quitting. Actually I am glad I took the time to write this. Just the act of getting it all out into words helps me form a clearer line of thinking and some more obtainable goals. Both of which are very helpful tools for success.
Well I’m beat so lest call it a wrap!
